you found me (a long post)
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I've been really happy these past few days.. Everything just seemed so normal and i can't believe that this is going to be my last day.

I want to look beyond the sadness i am feeling, saying goodbye is never easy. Familiarity is what I have been looking for, and now everything will change.

All I want to feel right now is how blessed I am.. to have been given a chance to spend my time here and meet all these people.. To have an actual family aside from having your original family. Made me realize to look beyond office relationships, and be thankful for real friendships that will last for a lifetime..

I cant ask for anything more really.. Just an overflowing gratitude to those people who have shown kindness. Those who showed me that life can be so much better.
To cherish every single moment..
To be able to give without counting..
To laugh at my freakin mistakes..
To have fun with each difficulties, but to overcome them eventually..

As i have written down in each note, I will still see you..
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I have been obsessin about this song the past weeks. Everytime i would jump in the car, i would play this song.. You might not know anything.. but you also might... but I want you to know that this song is for you...

Is this a dream?
If it isn't then
Please don't wake me from this high
I'd become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes

To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
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thank you's ... :)

ching's birthday last last week.. accounts people.. wala nga lang si julette!


at malu's house for lunch.. lunch was served by may paner. oh my gosh! ang sarap talaga promise!


this was taken by pau.. sino pa? siya lang naman makakagawa nito eh. i like this picture with joan and my face partly showing.


this will always remind me of the good times.. and how it wont end. its funny since the three of us has such different personalities, i guess FOOD is the main attraction here.



also by pau, do i look like vietnamese with this hat?! hahaha!


aineee's condo will always be full of happy memories for me.


mukha kaming triplets stemming out from one body.


aww.. this is such a cute picture..


im guessing that these are the 3 ladies who planned all of this.


i like this picture because these are the people that i truly respect and adore..


awww.. such a happy moment! :)

i will miss you guys... :(

extra challenge

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the next few days, will going to be really hard for me.. first, i need to walk up to the bosses and inform them that i am leaving. its not that i dont care what they think about me, but i just find this hard to do. i never informed them, and it came to them as a shock. i think na nahihiya lang ako for not saying it to them directly. i dont mean to be rude, but i just dont know whats the right thing to do at this point. but im going to do one thing for sure - and that is to talk to them, and magpaalam man lang.

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the last talk i had with 'em is that they are not rushing me, and that i should take my time to think about things.. and after that, i finally decided to give my letter, without informing them what i have decided. arg!!!

a funny advice came from the HR, dont say the word resignation, but that i am just going to leave and try it out there. and for sure they will understand daw. and not to burn bridges.. that if things might not work out there (which i hope will not happen) - makakabalik pa daw ako.

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for whatever its worth, i never really wanted them to feel bad about anything, especially na magtampo sila sa akin.. thats the last thing i want them to feel.. and its just proper for me to aproach them and talk to them. i just didnt know the right thing to do, and for my decision that i simply need to do this... i had to do this for myself. i want to experience things... satisfy my curiousity. because if i dont do this now, i dont think io ever will. and i will not forgive myself if i let this chance pass me by.

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more than this.. it will be hard for me to leave this place.. where i've almost been for 2 years (counting my 3 mos training) ha! and of course, the friends i have and relationships built. -----> the lunch outs, fresh catch, kwento sa veranda, buying lunch at the jeep, jollibee, mga sumpong ng tao, quickly's taro ice, motong/potong @ ministop, 7-11 slurpee, chowking's nai cha, amici's pasta/roasted chicken/gelato, fieldtrips at g4/gb... etc! ayaw ko na itong isipin nalulungkot lang ako lalo...

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but i'm hoping for better things to come.

Dr. Shrink's XRAY Report

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This was a personality test, answered by my friend and was given to me back when we were still in high school. If I am not mistaken, mga first year 'to. Anyways, i guess it would just be fun to post it.

ANTON LIM

according to Dr. Shrink's X-Ray Report:

Drive: 8 / 10

Reliability: 7 / 10

Sociability: 4 / 10

Cleverness: 9 / 10

Emotionality: 8 / 10

Aggressiveness: 7 / 10

Anton's Public Self What He tells The World

You are likely to observe Anton working hard but remaining in the background of things. In fact, he'll probably contribute more than some of his visible counterparts. He keeps to himself by choice and not unusual for others to take credit or get recognition for work that he has performed. Although Anton may never be a star, he always performs well, and knowing that, is happy.

Anton's Private Self What He Would Only Tell Dr. Shrink

When under extreme stress, Anton tends to become almost as fragile as a glass. One high pitched noise and he may shatter into millions of pieces. He is the person Webster had in mind when writing the definition for the word "sensitive". Many htings bother him or cause him worry, but most of his concerns are collected and bottled up inside. He rarely shares His private self with others because he fears rejection.

Anton's Deepest Emotions What He Hates

Anton seems to hate interruptions in his daily routine and he counts on maintaining stability in his personal life and his work. When an element of change is forced on him, he tends to become upset and anxious. He may even need to take time out and go away until he regains his composure and restores his equanimity.

What He Loves

Anton loves taking directions from others. He tends to become anxious when left to his own devices and feels better when someone else is control. Being independent brings more responsibility and uncertainty that he cares to handle.

How to make friends with Anton

To develop a friendship with Anton, you will have to spend time with him and him alone. The two of you will have to collaborate on a task or simply share the same physical space for a while before he opens up. And this will probably never happen if there are many other people around to take part in your conversations. Also it is likely that you'll have to do most of the talking, so be prepared to carry the bulk of the conversation. However, once you get to know him and have gained his trust, it is likely that you will find him warm and interesting to be with.

How to influence Anton

People like Anton feels pressure on a greater degree than other people and can become overly nervous if placed on too much stress. Therefore, indirect approaches that do not involve apparent coercion are apt to be most effective in persuading them. One such technique is to couch your arguments in terms of the prevailing culture, government or corporation. For example you might say this, "This is IBM and you are expected to work hard and play hard." Or consider blaming a common enemy as the reason why Anton must comply with your wishes. Explain that if he goes along with you, not only will he come out ahead, but that the unfair company that fired him two years ago will suffer.

bolinao weekend!
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I always say that the ocean revitalizes me, not just a pool, but an ocean. I don’t know why, but I feel that I am one with the world, just connected with nature. This nature that goes beyond what my eyes can see, things that even I haven’t seen.

Last long weekend trip to Bolinao in Pangasinan was beautiful, it passed all my requirement for a relaxing vacation. What are these requirements of mine? They are the following:

1. Endless amount of good food (snacks, chips, chocolates, and main meals). I perceive “inihaw” to be the main beach food, or any seafoods at that, lobster, crabs, curacha, squid.. the best.

2. Who you are with is also a main consideration whether you are gonna enjoy or not, and I did enjoy, had loads of fun. I did actually experience to back out on some of my trips because of that.

3. Another factor is that, the beach should not be that crowded. I don’t ever want to be in Bora, kung sobrang daming tao. When I am in the beach, I am in the mood to relax, and not in the mood to mingle with people I haven’t even seen. Maybe this is my loner side talking.

Here are some of the pictures of the trip...


a view from the lighthouse, overlooking bolinao and its famous beach. buti hindi pa kalbo dito, at may greens pa!



this was taken sa treasures of bolinao, a high end resort. parang may butas na nag flash ng tubig.



at patar white beach.. all by ourselves. also, i actually enjoyed swimming in the "enchanted cave" but when those students came, it did ruin my happiness. they were noisy...



version 2 with angel naman.



the beautiful beach.. sidenote, someone drowned daw during that time. kawawa.. :(

this is my lobster!!!

lunch was great. they took care of it, i wasnt functioning well anymore, wish i could have helped..

i like how tall these coconut trees looked like, and yung mukhang parallel siya.

a view from where we stayed at coco beach 1.. ate sid, sorry naman sa toilet niyo.. hindi ko sinasadya!

till the next beach trip!

list of things i need to do...

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anyway, since things have been slowly revealing itself.. i am starting to think about the things i really wanted to do before... before things change?! hehehe!

honestly.. i was so anxious of yesterdays events.. i mean with people knowing, and talking about it. i guess its normal for them or any company for that matter. but its not normal for me.. and it will never be. but now, i'm all for it. i mean its not the nicest thing to discuss, but i welcome any thoughts and comments about it.. because for one thing, i dont care about it at all. DEADMA na kung baga.

some things i want to do..

- i want to eat at swagat in rada (ive been wanting to do this...)

- eat at a korean resto in makati ave

- try myron's at rockwell.

- i want to go to cubao, spend an afternoon in marikina shoe expo, book store, maybe have lunch at bellini's...

- watch xmen3!

- buy some personal things to bring - quite a long list.

- have lunch at amici's - pasta, roasted chicken and gelato!, buy ensaymada's, and cookies.

- watch bede spin one friday..

- have dinner at joan's resto

- go to mass and confess..

- go to boracay, or any beach for that matter. (the ocean revitalizes me, and i need that badly)

thats it, and i am all ready!

i am officially tired now.. :(