things i want to do...
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1. i want to go to coffee bean or starbucks at tumanga! it happened one time, when i was to meet someone for a conprobe, medyo natagalan siya, kaya nakatanga lang ako. i miss that feeling already at ang saya.

2. i want to go to the gym, cardio-exercise my heart out... and stay in the sauna and rest...

3. i want to try out seryna at little tokyo in pasong tamo, kai in greenbelt 3, 7 corners in galleria manila.

4. i want to go to macau!!! such a steal for a 15 USD plane fare. i also want to go back in singapore, ho chi minh, and explore bangkok. haay.

5. i want to go to rustans - according to julia, there's a sale.. also sa topman but unfortunately last day na today.

want is such a selfish word, that i have learned to compromise. casue i think that one can never live with "wants".. i know that i can have all these things, but i also need to know how to learn to discipline myself and sacrifice my wants... i dont why i should sacrifice it, but i believe that whatever it is, it will be all worthwhile.

back to basics

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my cousin -achi icelle is back from myanmar, but for only 3 weeks, then she goes back there again. the next i will see her, is on the wedding of her brother in july. yeah, that is something to look forward to, ill see my cousin from singapore with his family, and my godson.. excited na ako for that.

while achi icelle is here, the first resto we went was jollibee.. we are chicken joy and palabok. we also went to greenhills, we ate our old fave treats from there which im sure she missed a lot. like taco's in kamico's, siopao and siomai in chocfull of nuts, and chilled taho. we also decided on a new frame of glasses, which i think looks superb on her. siyempre ako namili nun kaya dapat todo maganda.

last saturday we went to greenbelt with some of our cousins too, we ate dinner at sentro, i've decided to eat there na lang since its' parang filipino food of some sort. hahaha. weird ba? so i asked her tro trythe sinigang na corned beef, which im sure sha had never tried before. i did gulp on sago and gulaman which made me instantly full. after we made her try cold rock, i remember that my last encounter with cold rock want really fun at all.. it left me feeling like i need to puke, super tamis naman kasi. i got the nutella one, nutter butter ata they call it. and for the smallest cup, we spent 150! tapos sasabihin lang ng ibang cousins ko na lasang chocnut! nyek!

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anyways, i have finally decided to order from qitchen (www.qitchen.blogspot.com).. i ordered a mini banana cream pie. cant wait for it na.

also, i am thinking whether i should go to that tea party, i know that there will be loads of food and desserts to be showcased, the best in manila as they say. ho-hum...

weekend - yehey!

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ang bilis ng araw.. friday na naman. its not that i'm complaining.. i love fridays, and everything that goes with it, minus the traffic.

new set up in the office, i think i need time to get use to it, but so far, so good. i think it will help us a lot with the new developments. i mean, we can only do so much, but at least, an extra mind will do us good.

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i get this feeling that i am somehow distracted with what my plans. with things keeping me busy - work, and new developments - that makes me comfy with this set up.. i need to remind myself about my goals for this year. i need to be reminded of what and how i felt the past few weeks... what made me decide to persue things. i just need a constant reminder, that i dont want this already.

i have heard a lot of comments lately although not really bad. i mean - i have never denied what i am feeling, and i think i was too transparent that people saw something different in me. comments like: smile ka naman diyan, masyado kang malungkot.. something is different in you, tahimik ka na for the past 2 weeks... okay ka lang ba? at may sakit ka ba? this maybe affecting the people that i work with also.. so...

im gonna try my best to erradicate this na.. now, im trying this new thing, where i could just show everything is fine.. smile.. fine.. smile.. fine... anyways, im feeling well naman na, better than before where i get really depressed and stuff. but it doesnt mean i should change my focus na. and yeah mabe everything is fine..

:) smile...

i'm turning ONE
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one year since i accepted this job.. i can't believe that i lasted a year already. isang taon.

its been a year full of work, stress, interviews, transcriptions, formulation of guide q's, conprobe cascade's, fgd's, in home interviews, starbucks and late night probes, backroom check.. i've also learned a lot and grew a lot (in terms of lbs) kidding aside..

i also have met a lot of people during the probes.. some who left their marks in my life, and their comments and feedbacks will forever be appreciated. i've already talked to someone as old as 60 years old, to as young as 7 years old. to mom's, yuppies, ofw's, the list goes on and on and on..
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my past year has been crazy, but i will chose to look at the brighter side of things. yes, i have learned a lot, have been to extreme levels of happiness and misery.. but the most important thing that i value is that i've made friendships that i hope to last my lifetime. i look up to a lot of people here.
1. they, who continously inspires me to work hard and constanlty improve myself.. continously amazing me with your gifts.
2. they, who showed me real and genuine friendships that any salary increase's can never compensate.
3. those who showed me that true friends can say anything to each other, even the worst criticism - accepting it and channeling it to something positive.
4. those who have listened with my endless rants and rave's.. i will forever be grateful.
5. those whose company, i have enjoyed in field trip, lunches, dinners, and mirienda breaks..

you guys know who you are, and for these reasons, i will never feel that i've made a wrong decision in joining this organization.
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one thing i assure you.. i know for a fact that i am in an uncertain place in my life.. but rest assured that whatever might happen, i'll be here for you guys. :)

showbiz day
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dinner last night at zong was great. it was my first time there, and the food was good, i like their fried chicken encrusted in salted egg, and the shrimp salad. and suddenly the night turned out to be different..

we went to pia's place (one of the production people in game ka na ba?!) - in her place was some items the kris aquino is selling for charity - inno sotto, rajo laurel gowns.. jackets from french connection, topshop.. tops from zara woman and dorothy perkins.. anyway, i just sat down there and mommy, tita bot, and auntie dawna was digging in. anyways, the "kwento" here is that my mom got a dress she liked. she wasnt really planning on buying anything but since ahya ival's wedding is coming up.. she got one.. this apple green beaded cocktail dress. it was pretty, and i actually saw kris aquino wear it sa game ka na ba?! she got it for 1,500, the original price?! tumatagingting na 25,000.. owshet. isnt that a bargain..

nosy me asked pia, is she gonna sell her bags or wallets and stuff? she told me na, bilin daw ni lola (or miss kris) is never touch her bags and shoes.. hahaha! classic. well, i'm sure that if she' sell it ubo kagad yan with her staff pa lang.. LV's galore.
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haay. another probe coming up, pressure to ah.. may comment from the client na before, alhtough hindi ako, pero pressure pa din cause i'm sure she'd like to see improvements.. gagamitan ko na lang siya ng word's ni joan... "you-dont-know-me" hahaha.. sinusubukan ata ako nito ah..

tagaytay for cheryl's birthday

last february 5 was cheryl's birthday, and for that we decided to celebrate it in tagaytay. first off was our lunch at bon giourno, inside the cliffhouse, it host to 3 or 4 restaurants. one is the firelake grill, a fine dining type of resto, being set up was cafe breton... and then bon giourno (i think that is how you spell it). i had fun, the place was really relaxed and laid back, and quiet. we ordered chicken risotto, shrimp and mushroom ravioli, pizza, bolognese and stuff. we all had a tall glass of dalandan shake, which was overwhelming.

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after late lunch, we went to the house to check it out, kinda scary though. parang nasa talahib na kami, and its like we were the only people around the village. so we decided to jsut have coffee sa starbucks. then we had dinner in bag of beans, i wasnt able to eat because i was super full na.. sayang! in the house, we just played this game where bubunot ka ng question and you will either answer it or share your thoughts about it.. we lasted til 3am, drinking vodka and playing that stupid game, that was fun.

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the morning, we had brunch na lang at breakfast @ antonio's... on the way home. well, the food was good naman, i just didnt like the service and the waiters there. they were all kind of rude. nagmamadali sila to get our plates, and when you would order, sasabihin nila.. "sir, mamaya, iikot naman pa ako.." -- anong klase kang waiter kung ganun??!!! all 6 of us was really pissed off with their waiters. hindi maganda ang attitude, and because of that i promise not to go back there anymore.

a little extra

i just wanted to say extra thanks to bon - who was always the first person to greet me on my birthday for the past 5 years if my life. hehe. and for dropping by at 1am and giving me those noodles and chips. ang sarap ah. thank yeww.. to cheri, our dear recruiter.. thanks for those popcorns.. yum yum yum. kilala niyo naman ako mababaw lang, popcorn lang?! haha. its the thought naman diba and the effort.

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i finally had the time to pass my requirements na, i hope they call, i'm really anxious about it. i just hope that they call. p-l-e-a-s-e

speaking of these requirements, the past days, things have been happening left and right at work. things that i hope are not conspired for me to do or not to do something about it. i just hope everything is conincidence lang, i dont want to put meanings into these little things and interpret these as signs.. be focused anton. more focused.

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back to the fun things in life, i'll be going to tagaytay tomorrow (saturday) til sunday to celebrate cheryl's birthday. happy birthday to you mah friend!!! :) and i hope to have fun there, with my college barkada. my only requirement lang is we do need to eat at bag of beans.. cant wait.

i am so tired from the fieldwork angel and i have been doing. for the past 2 days, we are just going round and round, pasig and guadalupe.. ayy..

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well, joan called me earlier asking if i will be in the office, cause she brought daw her gift for me. i am so excited about it.. i've seen it na in the picture but iba 'to cause its the live version and its extra special since it was made by her. thanks joan for the nice gesture.. :) speaking of "thank you's".. i have a lot of people to thank. first, to everyone who have greeted me on my day. . thank you. thank to lester for treating me to dinner last friday night. thanks to cheryl, tracy and obee for taking the effort sa pagpunta sa house ko on a sunday, plus treating me to lunch. hay plus 10 lbs. thanks to julette and kaye for the bizu cakes, plus 3 lbs.. kay sheryl, para dun sa favorite kong hopia dice. haay. tama na. basta thank you to everyone who have greeted me. :)

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i've been back to the gym since last monday, and after the assessment of my trainer, i'm obese class 1 daw.. sige, salamat ah. for the past days, i've been doing cardio exercises muna since iwant to focus on that and get back to my weight.. so that's minus 10lbs pa. hope to achieve it in 2 weeks. haha. and after that, i will start na with my whole body workout. ay-yayyay.. i'm sure that i will not be able to lift my arms na naman after. but anyways, being back to the gym is always nice.

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well, i already made a decision, and i hope i could stand by it. i hope i have the guts to go against the odds, whatever people might say.. i guess, i just gotta turn into "it's-my-own-life" mode, and listen to people who knows me well na lang. haay. the week's ending, it has never been better.