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manila is good as always. HAHA! although too bad for me that it was raining so hard. arg. anyways, some note on that trip:

1. thanks to ags and cho for my polo - it has "this" sentimental value when we got trapped in topman in mall of asia. ahaha!

2. dad - i love my new phone. yey! thank you! sa lahat lahat maraming salamat, i do feel blessed and such a lucky bastard.

3. mom - sa pagsama sa akin around the metro, pinuntahan ko ata lahat ng mall. and for buying me grocery items and still paying my credit card while im still here.. such a lucky lucky lucky bastard!!!

4. tita bebs and family - for treating me to dinner.

5. uncle david and family - thank you for showing overwhelming support..

6. monica - for the calendar pad and shirt. ang ganda nung calendar pad.. i liked the quotes.

7. to my closest friends - thank you for taking time out and meeting me.. talking to you guys and spending time with you is just one of the best moments..

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weird.. i can view my old blog again, and how i miss the plain white pages, and my innocent posts back then. HAHAHA! wala lang. i might do the next few posts there na lang, actually depending on my mood.

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last night, we had dinner at hooter's in clark quaye. american food served by tiny-winy. HAHA. the food was good, get those recommended by the chef. the servers were wearing skimpy outfits, sexy sila pero di maganda. the face is plain. HAHA.

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singapore idol.. they have talents but not really that great to rave about, i mean so-so lang sila. kaya silang pasabugin no sarah geronimo kahit may lagnat siya. ganun. mas magaling pa din ang pinoy singers.

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boss called me friday night, talked about the upcoming work. i think there's a presentation on wednesday.. and she wants me to do the reseach and write concepts. she told me that the next 2 days will be hard for me. tinatakot ba ako nun?! AHAHA. i think she is just warning me and asking me to prepare for long working hours, as any advertising professional does. HAHAHA. talk about my first day at work.

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hoy, ikaw! may nakita ako sa TV na leather shoes by tenorio manila. ikaw ba nag design nun?! congrats. galing mo. i was shocked by the clip and that familiar "dog-man" creature, nakadapa! HAHA. na-doink doink din ata.

yun lang.. till my next post.

arg!!!
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life can be so surreal.

i've been really happy these past few days, its been a joyride. suddenly, all the things fell into place. things have been bigger and better, i felt like i am brand new. i'm happy with what i have right now, i'm grateful with every blessing that came my way - all the coincidences, the luck, the people i have in my life, friends and family relationships... it really does feel great.

but it suddenly occured to me that nothing is permanent in this world, and although its hard to accept the fact that this wont last very long. i know things will be different once i am there. i just hope that it is for the better.

the truth is i am afraid that i will not be able to talk to my friends and family as often as i want.. na ikwento sa kanila lahat ng nangyayari at pinag-gagagawa ko.. that i will badly miss everything that was once familiar to me, my routine.. that i wont be updated to whats happening with them, with their lives.. the small talk, chismis, at lahat lahat na.

sometimes tuloy i wonder, ano ba talaga ang positive side ng ginawa kong ito.. is it really positive?!?! just thinking out loud. but DEDMA na yan, FIGHT na 'to as they say.

more than the work, i think these are the challenges that i need to face and overcome.

my family.

things i enjoy here in the lion city..

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1. sakae sushi is definitely one of the things i enjoy here. the endless amount of maki, temaki, and sushi - eat all you can style. you can even request orders that are not available in the belt, and ask them to bring it to you. for about sgd18.

2. yesterday i went to muji to buy some personal things i need, like papers, pens, plasic, etc.. and of course got some pasalubong for my brother. he loves that place. i wish i could bring him there and that i could pay for whatever he wants.

3. went to topman and bought a collared shirt for my dad. it doubles as a birthday gift din also, since i wont be there on their birhdays. ayan ah, dumadami na din ang topman mo.. pero siyempre mas madami pa din ako.

4. went to puremilk in bugis. they have good designs in there. and i got my brother one too - for his coming birthday in august. i wont be there din kasi eh. haha! i also got mom a shirt.

5. IT galore. got my sister a 1gb flash driver per her request. but i am not paying the whole amount, im halfing it with my parent. i want an ipod...

6. ikea.. nahilo ako sa place na yun, it was jampacked with everything. actually everything that i wanted. i got a few pictures, frames, lamps for myself and my room here. haha! i also tried the ikea restaurant and cafe which my cousin recommended. well it was good. if you go here, you need to try their meatballs - iba sha at masarap.

7. the great singapore sale. i got a samsonite body bag for SGD57, i know thats a bit pricey, but i gotta have a cool bag to bring in the office. haha! lacoste shoes goes for as low as SGD 30, i was too tempted to buy but made sure that what i buy is something that i need.

8. hawkers, here and there and everywhere. but im excited for friday to come, we will try the east hawkers, the best there is daw. chilli crab, lemon chicken.. here we go!! its also a semi celebration that i already got work..

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thank you lord for every blessing that you have brought in my life. thank you for the courage you have given me to do this.. and for the support of a lot of people. i dont need to mention names now, but you guys kno who you are and i cant thank you enough. :)

i want to feel numb
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i want to feel numb, its not that i dont want to feel anything anymore, but i choose not to feel anything anymore.. i dont want to be too emotional in dealing with this kind of things. maybe because i'm just scared that i might turn my back from where i am and go back to what used to be.. what used to be my life. kumbaga, giving up the fight.

actually, i really am fine.. to me this is all a challenge. a challenge to find something.. find my "cheese" that is. even if i failed, i really wouldnt care what other poeple would say... i was just glad that i was able to do this. but what actually makes it hard for me is the fact that my family (parents) is finding it hard to adjust with our new situation.

my mom texted me just this morning, that my dad wanted to call me up agad, at sabi niya wag muna kasi kailangan ko magpahinga.. and my dad texted me that my mom cried herself to sleep kasi di daw sanay na wala ako.

(take note: that was just the first night)

i know that things will never be easy if and ever that things continue to be as planned (God willing)... but if things here dont work out, ill be back in no time, ill be fine wherever, knowing that it will not be that hard for them, but i am not giving up just yet.