off for my holiday.
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finally, i am flying back to manila tomorrow for my holiday. am soo excited. okay, seriously, there are so many things happening about my resignation that i just want to escape from it, for now, even for a week. it will be "ME" time - i will do whatever i want, without anyone calling and bugging me. seriously.

there are a few things on my plate as of current, and they are the following:
1) manila trip - there will be a gathering (dinner) at our house on saturday. its good that i will see my cousins and aunts there. i miss my family and relatives.

2) beijing - i cant wait to see jeanette, and tour the city.

3) shanghai - i want to shop gifts for family and friends, i will try my best not buy anything for me. i just paid my 2008 tax and credit card bills, therefore my bank account is like zilch. HAHA!

4) i have booked my flight to bangkok on july 10-13, am going with sarah, satya and simon - these are the people confirmed, the rest i don't know yet. i just want to meet the TH SSM.

5) i will be booking my flight to taipei this saturday with aggie and cho. i am flying off sep 4-9, and am excited about this because it will be out first trip together just the 3 of us. i am excited to explore the city - as i saw pictures and its really beautiful.

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i will be back by next or the week after next, and hopefully i can update with travel photos. YAY! :)

emotional blackmail
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this is getting out of control, and i feel very very sad already, its like emotional blackmail for me, i love working with these people (local market) and i adore them so much that it pains me for them to say these things. but then again, it is a validation in some ways.

wadee says:
Anton

wadee says:
june is gone crazy now

wadee says:
and worry about u

Anton says:
im sorry

Anton says:
i will visit you guys soon

wadee says:
June told all the team in a loud voice

wadee says:
and we all feel sorry about u now

wadee says:
come to TH

Anton says:
i will visit you guys

Anton says:
i will book my flight and let you guys know. i want to meet all of you guys.

wadee says:
Anton,

wadee says:
she still mourning

Anton says:
noo... this is making me so sad.

wadee says:
we all sad

Anton says:
it breaks my heart.. cause i really love working with you guys.

wadee says:
I'll tell u

wadee says:
esp those who working with u

wadee says:
as i told u the other day

wadee says:
those I mean June and Lee

wadee says:
coz I called them to let them know

wadee says:
as the mail came out to us quite late

wadee says:
and they gone home

wadee says:
and these past 2 days both were not in the office

wadee says:
JUne was driving when I called

wadee says:
she's sad

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and then, P'June messaged me and said:

to be good attitude for alls says:
I am so sad

Anton says:
why?

to be good attitude for alls says:
when will you go

Anton says:
oh you mean my last day?

to be good attitude for alls says:
yes

Anton says:
in the letter its july 21, there is still time.

to be good attitude for alls says:
we shock when got the mail

Anton says:
i want to tell you personally. but i was shocked as well, when it was announced, i will tell you something but between us ok?

to be good attitude for alls says:
ok

Anton says:
actually, i was shocked when it was announced bec 2 weeks ago i had this conversation with RAMD

Anton says:
and they were asking me to reconsider.

Anton says:
so i havent gotten back to her yet... since i was super busy with COS, then i was on leave monday, when she emailed everyone.

to be good attitude for alls says:
why she do that

Anton says:
i also dont know.

Anton says:
everyone here asked me, they were shocked with the announcement as well, i have no idea

to be good attitude for alls says:
what is she doing, what about H?

to be good attitude for alls says:
we love you and need you to stay

Anton says:
cause when H and i spoke, we said that lets finish COS first before we talk, bec we cannot concentrate with the amount of work happening

Anton says:
i was telling them that i am really really lucky with you guys.... that workwise, i dont have problems with you, and i work with you guys pretty well.

Anton says:
but i will visit you guys soon...

to be good attitude for alls says:
welcome anytime

Anton says:
maybe end june.. just to meet you guys. cause i met indo, mal and sg already except th, so i will make sure that i meet thailand ssm too....


to be good attitude for alls says:
so what will you do next

to be good attitude for alls says:
I means do you have any plan yet

Anton says:
i dont know yet honestly, no plans yet.

to be good attitude for alls says:
you should fight

Anton says:
A (client) spoke to me as well asking me to stay.

to be good attitude for alls says:
you should

Anton says:
so am thinking

Anton says:
i promised her that i will be open, cause she was telling me that... there are a lot of people who have resigned in CCT, and im one person that she really wants to stay. so i really appreciate that, about her

to be good attitude for alls says:
me too

Anton says:
i appreciate you guys as well... i love working with you guys..

to be good attitude for alls says:
you are one of CCT that we love to work for

Anton says:
thanks for that. i really appreciate it. and i love working with you guys as well.. mutual feeling and respect.

Anton says:
you are now making me really sad..

to be good attitude for alls says:
don't sad, you have to ask RAMD

Anton says:
RAMD is not here, thats why i cant talk to her, she will be back next thursday only

to be good attitude for alls says:
what about H & M? have you talk with her yet, or they also busy

Anton says:
spoke to H & M already as well

to be good attitude for alls says:
don't worry everything will be Ok

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and from singapore

Joanne = now ht asking me, "joanne. when u meeting anton for farewell lunch?"
Anton = HAHA! farewell lunch
Anton = how about drinks!! HAHA
Joanne = blurgh
Joanne = but wat i am puzzled is
Anton = hey as i have told you its not yet finalised.
Joanne = since u haven convirm ur decision
Anton = so really there is a chance for me
Joanne = why RAMD send such an email
Joanne = STAY
Joanne = I BEG U
Joanne = DUN LEAVE US, DUNNNNN
Joanne = i can be drama mama leh.
Anton = drama
Joanne = personally.. we dun wan u to go la.. but its still ur decision
Joanne = even evon.. only work with u awhile.. oso have same thoughts as me, and u know wat, CY praised u ok! so.. dun go.. people recognised ur efforts, she say u are one of the best CCT she knowned
Anton = yeah right

conversation with thailand director.
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our thailand SSM director, Khun Yuwadee messaged me earlier today - i am very touched honestly. i am just overwhelmed right now. our RAMD has sent out an email already that i will be leaving the team, i was just honestly shocked because i was supposed to talk to her this week. goes to show how they manage the team, right?


wadee says:
Anton , just to let u know before I'm heading to P&G

Anton says:
yes?

wadee says:
my team felt sorry to hear that you are leaving

Anton says:
thanks Khun yuwadee.

wadee says:
we really mean it

Anton says:
thanks thanks

Anton says:
Khun Yp - actually its not yet that finalised.. i dont know why an email was sent already

wadee says:
aow

wadee says:
what 's wrong

wadee says:
anyway i on behalf of the team

wadee says:
would like u to know that we feel that you are our good partner

wadee says:
good teamwork

wadee says:
sincerely

Anton says:
thanks thanks.. i have to say the same about the thailand ssm

wadee says:
June and Lee are not here (people i work with on a daily basis)

wadee says:
they are out for traiing

wadee says:
but they both know

wadee says:
as I call and inform them

Anton says:
nothing but good working relationship with you guys

wadee says:
I always hear them talking good words about u

wadee says:
ok

wadee says:
i have to rush out now

wadee says:
talk to u soon

Anton says:
thanks Khun yp - really appreciate it

Anton says:
talk to you soon

breakfast is my favorite meal.
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i haven't posted a lot in the past few weeks. work got me really occupied, anyway, its much better now. i went to KL with chicho last april 30 to may 3 - it was the labor day weekend, and we had lots of fun. it was chicho's first time there, and i was with cheryl and franco as well. i have met lots of friends and people that i have worked with like eileen, serena, chweeling, yinping, pei shih. it was just great to see all of them again. i also met my cousin and his girlfriend, and we had this great food hawker style at jalan alor.

but my favorite meal out of the whole trip was the breakfast i had with cho on our last day at la bodega in pavilion. i loved the whole place, the vibe, setting and especially the food.


trying to access wireless internet in the morning.


chicho making some weird face while waiting for breakfast


using mom's new HP mini, and my iced latte.


i loved chicho's order - especially the grilled mushroom and tomato. it was soo good.


i got egg's benedict with smoke salmon. i love salmon and it tasted really great.

our total bill was around RM70, which is cheap compared to singapore standards, it is roughly around SGD30 or Php900.

looking forward.
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i have quite a few things that am really looking forward to, on top of my list would be going back to manila and seeing everyone. i miss my family, and i just cant wait to spend time with them. i'm thinking sunday bruch at hyatt and things of that nature. mom even asked me to list down things i want to eat, etc. HAHA!

i can't wait to get my china visa on wednesday - i am so looking forward to a holiday. am thinking of less shopping and more touring of both beijing and shanghai. but knowing me, i would really shop a lot. i guess i have to think that i will be unemployed in the next few months to stop me from hoarding stuff.

i am super happy that i am off this coming monday, since i worked last monday which was a holiday. i love long weekends, and it really just sucks to go to work.

i am excited to book my flight to bangkok (end june) - ryan and i are thinking of going. and the best thing? the flight costs only SGD 150?! thanks to tigerairways for cheap fares. i want to visit thai ssm, and meet them personally even before i leave.

i am hoping that the swine virus will be gone by next week. sarah wants to go to HK, and is asking me whether we should go. am thinking no more $$$, but hey, it might be my last trip with sarah since she is going back to AUS. andddd, visiting charlotte is one thing we really want to do.

mom tells me that once am back home, we will do a trip together in HK, since she wanted to buy this goyard bag @ harvey nicholson. anyway, we'll see what happens. i am thinking i'd rather go with mom, cause i wouldn't need to shell out so much $$$.

over the past 4 days, i have been out with my friends, wednesday with julette, thursday with mech and sel, friday with crushies and saturday with ryan and julette - all occasion saw me drinking either beer or cocktail. HAHA! its been almost a week of celebrations for me, and it will be even so for a year.

life is good.

thanks, julette!
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the bitch who's back made this for me. HAHAHA! i miss old times, not the workload, but mostly the people i worked with.

chicho's last day
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chicho went home this morning. i miss him na, and i want him back in my house, or maybe me back home. yon lang.


we went to guilin park - first time that we did a non-shopping activity. it was beautiful, so i am planning a jogging session with ryan next week.


it was very relaxing, and it really felt so good, like you leave all your worries behind type of feeling.


we bought the same havianas - back in december. our stuff are mostly the same, shirts in different color, etc.


took a picture of our shadows while walking. i have more photos in multiply.

pardon me for all my issues lately, am no fun to talk to, but am really trying my best to be sane, and think logically. thats it. i hope i'll be back to my normal self in a few days/weeks.